rough night.. anyone else? :(

betta • 33👧 ▪️Canadian Girl 🇨🇦 Happily Married💍 ▪️GirlMom💜 ▪️Dog mom💚🐾
It's so hard and heart breaking that I find myself sitting in one of our three spare bedrooms after tidying it up and it still being empty.... it's not meant to be a spare bedroom. It's meant to be a bedroom full of love happiness and baby things. We bought our house about two and a half years ago with big palns on filling it up with babies and making our house a home! 
 We still hold faith and hope that this day will come but it is just so fucking hard to keep telling yourself your someday will come.. every time I walk into one of these rooms I picture in my mind how I am going to be setting up the babies room sometime soon and each time I have a piece of furniture in a different spot lol I like to think it helps me deal if I give myself something to think about and look forward too but at the end of the days.. months.. Years.. it is still empty. 
It hurts my heart even more when I think about our sweet angel baby who would have been filling our home with laughter and joy 💔
Just having a hard time tonight...