So back in 2015 I got pregnant and lost my baby and about three weeks later my best friend found out she was pregnant so I had to deal with my own issues while trying to be a support for her. Now we are both married and she has one child and we both want children but my husband and I haven't been trying because we know that we aren't financial able to care for a child right now. For the past three or four weeks I've had extreme baby fever and have had talks with my husband about trying to get pregnant again but he just feels like right now isn't the time and I just found out that my best friend is pregnant again and I'm finding it hard not to feel sad and depressed about it because I feel like every time I can't have a baby she is blessed with one and I feel like I'm reliving 2015 all over again Which probably seems crazy. My husband and I haven't even been married a year and are still figuring out how to be a proper husband and wife so I understand why he wants to wait on top of not being in the financial state we would like to be at when deciding to have children but at the same time my heart doesn't care about any of that