I'm SO sorry that I seem like such a negative Nancy or Debbie downer on here with every post I've made so far but I have been trying to spread love to others who share happy posts I promise! Haha. But this is the only place I feel comfortable opening up about the negative parts of TTC. So this was our 3rd official cycle of TTC baby #1. I had clearly positive OPK. Haven't been tracking BBT but plan to start. Had some spotting around when I should have ovulated or just shortly after positive OPK. Af was due Friday June 2nd. She didn't show. I figured I'd give it 1 day or to and test. Woke up Saturday morning. Still no AF and usually I wake up soaked in blood on day 1. So I decided to test and tested with first morning urine. I had a faint positive but it was definitely there! I showed hubby and he was so excited. But then before he left for work I noticed some spotting but bleeding wasn't like my normal period. So I just brushed it off and told hubby I'd test again in a day or two. But I couldn't wait SO tested that evening with diluted urine so the line was even lighter which was expected. The spotting seemed to stop too. Then Sunday morning I tested again and had another faint positive but was still visible to the naked eye. Still no spotting. Then started spotting again later in the day. Woke up this morning and went to the bathroom and tested and had BFN and shortly after using the restroom I noticed blood in the toilet and it literally looked like a bloody crime scene is how I described it to my husband to try to lighten my mood. I'm bleeding still and having some cramping all consistent with my period. Not noticing clots or anything though. I'm thinking this was just a chemical pregnancy  and I understand that whatever was there wasn't viable or maybe my eyes were deceiving me with the tests or I read them  but hubby saw them too and saw the 2nd line though so I'm not really sure. It's just so frustrating that an inanimate object can make you the happiest woman in the world or the saddest must frustrated. We aren't giving up hope and we will keep trying. It is just painful though regardless. I thank all of you for being so supportive regardless of the situation and I'm thankful to have found this community to find women who are going through similar situations. I know I say that in every post too but it is the truth. This app is therapeutic to me in some ways yet destructive in others haha. But baby dust to us all and fingers crossed for others who are testing today!!