I'm engaged with two children both his.. lately we've been falling apart sex life is next to nothing. No romance anymore and minimal communication and touch. We've been together nearly 5 years I love the bones of him but I've recently been dreaming of being with someone else which is now stirring feelings which is making me confused and uncomfortable in myself. I hate cheats can't stand them I'm faithful and loyal but myself and my SO are constantly arguing and he says a lot which brings me down "I'm fat, pathetic, stupid, lazy, no one else will ever love me" ect... Yes he's wrong and yes I'm aware it's a form of abuse but I love him yes I'm stupid but you can't help who you fall for... any advice?? Or any help as to how to bring the "spark" back? Since having my two babies I've piled on a few lbs.. gone from a size 12 uk size to a size 18 uk size... I can't seem to shift that I also would like to hear your weightless advice too!! Please don't hate on me I'm being honest and need genuine help. I love my fiance more than anything in this world (bar my children) I need something some advice on how to bring us closer and how to stop dreaming of being with someone else when I'm asleep! Tai!