I wanted it to be our first time together but he's already done it

Keanna
My boyfriend just told me that he had sex with his ex in the pool me and him swim in. That really made me disgusted and upset and I can't stop thinking about it. The reason why this all came up is because I the other day when we were swimming I gave him head under water and last night I was like that was awesome I've never done that have you and he said I don't think I've did that but I did have sex in there with my ex. At least he's being honest but still dam I haven't even gotten to have sex with him in there yet it just sucks. So now I feel extremely distant from him. I can't stop thinking about that pool and if he ejucalted inside of her or what ugh. It literally makes ms not want to have sex with him in the pool knowing that he's already done it. I'm overreacting you might think and I'm sure I am. I'm just in my feels and need some encouraging words right now so I can have a good day.