On Edge... crazy timing

Jen • Baby 💙 Feb 5, 2018
In November 2015, at 7months pregnant, we lost our little dream baby Jackson. Since January 2016 we have been trying for our rainbow baby. With my advanced age (35) we have been working with the OB to test, and make sure we could get pregnant again. A year passes. Nothing. 
In March we finally get ourselves an appointment at the Fertility specialist...for June.
So. Much. Peeing. On sticks. 
So many OPKs. Nothing. 
So I gave up. Duh. Hubs and I only got it on 3 times during fertile window. 
After 5 BFPs, Today I went to get confirmation blood test so I can cancel my fertility appointment. 
Waiting is making me on edge!