I know it's silly, especially when I see posters who've been actively trying for years, but I really wanted to be one of those rare bitches who get a BFP right out of the gate! We started actively trying about 6 weeks ago after 10 years of unprotected 'if it happens, ok' sex. So this was our first full cycle of timing, checking CM, BBT etc. Then I'm 3 days late and starting to get hopeful... Then crampy spotting today, hello AF. Grrr. Then I worry, if I'm this emotional now, how am I going to handle months or years of this, or God forbid a miscarriage? *Fear of disappointment leads to fear of hope*