Today I have decided to stop smoking my boyfriend like to cigarettes by my bed and I have so Lee could down to three a day I want them out of my life completely from one main reason besides it making my body die from smoking I want to have babies. For years I have had sex without perfection I never use protection that is because when I decided to start having sex I wanted a child and I have not been able to help one. I have smoked since I was 16 and now I am 25 for now I blame it on cigarettes until I am completely stopped then I'll look for another reason why I'm not having a baby right? Is there anything that anyone can help me with to keep me busy besides chewing on Candy to stop smoking cigarettes! Or thinking about a baby because it just makes me sad!