I'm scared. I don't know if I can do this any more. We have a 2 month old gorgeous little boy. And also a 13,11,9 year olds.

I'm so sleep deprived.

I suffer with mild depression and anxiety and I'm sure I have ppd.

Right now all I want to do is sleep.

But the baby is fussy, has been up all night, I don't have the strength to do anything. All he is doing is crying.

And where is my husband? In bed. From 3am-the present.

First off I should say we normally trade nights. And he's a great father. He has done night shift the last 4 nights, and normally baby sleeps thru from 10-5am but noooo not last night. He was up all night. Which is FINE! But after he does night shift I let him sleep the next day for however long he wants! And that's after he wakes me at 6am right after baby goes back to sleep. But I do night shift and it's now noon and he's still in bed! BS! I feel like taking the baby up to him, setting him on the bed and just leaving. I don't have a car (car accident a few days ago) and we only have a rental. And I'm not able to drive it. (Dont think) but ummm... Like, it's your turn now!

I just feel angry... Sad... Lonely... Tired..

I don't know if I Can do this. 😭😭😭😭