A little bit of bk history I had what I assumed was af but wasn't really feeling like myself took a couple of hpts came back faint positives.. I was beyond happy and excited 😊 to tk this journey with my hubby and my 2 daughters from a previous marriage.. Was so excited to announce to my husband on Father's Day. I prayed and prayed everyday that my blood test would come back positive and unfortunately it did not it broke my heart to pieces 💔😪 I preferred for me to broken than to see the pain and hurt in my husband eyes 👀 😢💔.. And to top it all off I had additional blood done as well and one particular blood panel came back abnormal, my Cadrio Lipid Panel which blew my mind because this the first time being tested for this and getting those results, as well as my son passed away from a heart condition known as Left Ventricular Hypertrophy. ( the 2 pumping chambers in the back off his heart were enlarged) So now I am back to blaming myself for my sons passing. I should have gotten tested when I was pregnant with him but I didn't know anything about it.. And I hate myself for it so much..  My son would still be here with me only if I knew...💔💔💔💔 my heart is hurting n breaking a million times over... Now I'm afraid to even try for a baby 👶🏽 I don't want to go through losing another child 👶🏽 I wouldn't survive.. But I also know that now my Drs are way better than what I had and they are going to help me with watever it takes for me to bring another child into this world 🌎 heathy.. I put my faith in my Dr... God is good and he has a plan for me and my family and is going to give us strength and guidance to us in our time of need 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽