When I was younger, I had disordered eating habits. I was always slim, just at the border between healthy and underweight. Even when I was eating with a healthier mindset, I barely gained any weight. But now, I started eating meat again after ten years (it was a weird and difficult choice) and switching to a hormonal IUD (had previously had the Paragard), I've gained weight. I'm heavier than I ever have been. I'm so uncomfortable. I'm so disgusted with myself. I tried to put on a pair of my period panties — that I had successfully worn during my last cycle — and they didn't fit. At all. I ripped them. Last night I wore a pair that was a little tight and now I've got like little rash-like things where they dug into me.