Am I the only person who has ever felt like this?

I recently started my period and my fiancé knew I was starting soon. My fiancé recently told me that he doesn't like it when I "ask" for sex. But since I'm on my period I'm always horny. I mean ALWAYS. But since he's told me that I haven't "asked" for sex. I haven't initiated sex. Pretty much haven't said a damn thing about anything sexual to him. Well, he does watch porn and tonight we showered together (like always) and once I was done washing my hair he came into the shower with me. (He waits because I like my water hot as fuck.😂) Anyways, while he was washing his hair and doing his thing he literally looks at me and says something along the lines of "want to jacky jacky?" And starts shaking his dick at me.😒 and tbh I really didn't want to. I hadn't even thought about wanting to here recently at all. I then started to talk all sarcastic and told him no and he said "fine I'll do it myself." He then tells me that I told him if he wanted something then to come to him (which I did. I would much rather him come to me then to go get off to some girl on the internet.) Well, he wanted to kiss while I was giving him a handjob and I did not. I didn't want to give him a handjob in the first place. I just did it so that he wouldn't watch porn. Long story short he kind of got upset at me because I didn't want to kiss him. He told me that I was killing his mood and while all of this was going I immediately felt the most unattractive that I have ever felt in my entire life. I felt as if I wasn't doing something right (I mean he did tell me that he felt like he was kissing a fish because I wouldn't "kiss" him back.) I just felt ugly and fat. For no reason at all. I just couldn't help but think about the girls that he watches on those videos.😭