babies everywhere..

After a rather heated discussion, me and my partner aren't gonna start trying for a baby yet... much to my heartbreak. He wants everything to be perfect for when we have one. But it just seems that everyone is tormenting me, baby adverts, friends on Facebook having babies, and people at work... 
He told me about a month ago he was ready for one, and when I finally plucked up the courage to tell him I felt the same, he backtracked... i cried many tears and even couldn't find the words to say anything to him for a couple of days. I actually felt let down by this.. but now, I understand, he wants our children to have the life we both never had. And as much as I'd love a baby now... I've just gotta be strong enough to keep taking my pill and living my life until it's perfect 😞