This is bit of a rant, but I have no one to go to, or nobody cares.. so I am 28 weeks pregnant, 20, married, and currently live on our own. (Baby wasn't planned, but wasn't prevented because I can't ovulate properly and was told getting pregnant was basically impossible. So never used BC of any kind) But my husband graduates tech school in 10 days, and we will be moving back to our home state. Our original plan was to stay with his parents since we have no where else to go, just for a month so we can fix an apartment my grandparents own, because in January, my husband will be going to the other side of the country for 3 months to finish an elective school program. But about 4 weeks ago, my grandparents announced that they Didn't want us to clean out the apartment. (I don't blame them, it's a HUGE job and use it for storage) but not we are stuck at my inlaws house. For the first time since I was 15, I will not be working at any job of any sorts due to lack of childcare, and we can't afford our own place again with him leaving, and only one income. Don't get me wrong, I love my inlaws with all my heart. They are like second parents to me. But they live in a thousand square ft home, and the bedroom we stay in is directly next to them. Our beds are litterally 15 ft away from each other. And my mother in law doesnt exactly have a filter or knows privacy. I am having an extremely hard time knowing that I will be living there with our newborn. I was planning on nursing, laboring at home for a while, and recovering in peace and quiet. But now I'm so stressed out, I don't want to nurse for my own selfish reasons, I don't want to have this baby in general, he can stay in my belly forever. And I'm so emberessed and stressed out already of recovering in that household. All I do is cry, and get angry, I don't eat much anymore, I'm not happy or can't get excited about my son being born. All I feel is stressed and overwhelmed. I had very few friends to begin with, and lately I've realized they don't care about me anymore. They just still want to be called uncles/aunties and have new baby time.. so I'm basically alone now. My husband knows I'm upset, but doesn't realize how upset I am. And I don't want to make it sound like I hate his parents so I don't talk much about it. Since I got pregnant, I've been alone 90% of the time since I work as a nanny with a 2 year old, and my husband works/schools 40 minutes away, for 15 hours a day. He's only been to one drs appointment with me so it makes me feel like I'm even more on my own. It's been extremely hard And the closer it gets to my due date, the more upset I get.. i just don't know what to do anymore how how I should feel. I've already failed as a mother for not having a real home to go to after he's born. I bet nobody actually got this far down because this is just ridiculous.. but if someone is out there.. any advice would help 😔