I never thought I would share this but...

 I've been in a relationship with someone on and off for two years. Had a stillborn son with this guy last November. During that pregnancy it was really bad. He would be talking to other girls, ask me to drive him to parties then got mad when I sat in the car because I didn't want to be in that environment 25 weeks pregnant, then left me when our son passed. I delivered my stillborn son by myself with my mom. He never saw his son. I was 30 weeks pregnant. He left me after that and we stayed apart for a few months. Well of course just like all toxic relationships you get sucked back in so I decided okay lets try to work things out. Well the loss of our son left a void for both of us so being together again we wanted to have another one. Well... I'm pregnant again now with our second son at 19 weeks pregnant. With this pregnancy I've moved in with him trying to be a family. I'm not working to take it easy with this pregnancy considering I lost my previous son. Well a month after living with him I caught him flirting with another girl through messages. I continued to stay and work that our. Well I've set some standards for him and he refuses to meet those. He has a drinking problem. He has to constantly drink. He doesn't get beligerently drunk but the fact he has to have it is not okay with me and I don't want to watch him drink his life away. He agreed to cut back. Also, he has this obsession with playing a video game on his computer. First of all, what grown man plays video games after work until 2am every day.. so that pure fact alone gets me irritated. Since he is playing the game all day and night, he never wants to spend time with me. He agreed to spend Sunday with me since he had been putting priorities on things that he shouldn't have. Well sunday gets here and he decides that while I'm taking a nap, he goes takes the only car we have and goes to a bar. I wake up and have no idea where he is or what he is doing and he doesn't answer his phone. After he gets back, I asked him why he wouldn't pick up his phone and he said I didn't feel like it.... we have another baby on the way and you just didn't feel like it... ok. So from that point it's been arguments about how apparently I'm the problem and blah blah blah. So I'm packing my bags and getting myself out of this situation for my health and my son's. to all you single moms who have had to make the decision to walk away for the betterment of yourself and your child, I commend you because this was not easy.