Confused Teen Please help.

Ive watched porn since the 2nd grade because I would get horny and I had an IPad (I never got caught). I didnt know exactly what I was doing I just knew that I wanted to touch my self and I was horny so I kind of felt the need to. I am now 14 and every time that I have Tried to rub/touch myself, I do not feel any sort of pleasurable feeling instead, I kind of get turned off because I dont know what to do. I get wet but then I just touch down there and its weird. I hear girls at my school say that They finger themselves and rub and it feels great. Honestly, i am kind of freaked out about it because I feel different then the rest. I dont want to ask my mom knowing how she is so I decided to post it on this app. Is this normal? Will there be a point where I do feel good doing it? Is something weird about me?