To make a long story short: we're a group of four friends: two girls, two guys. For a long time I have had strong feelings for one of them, but him and the other girl just got in a relationship. Which means that me and that other guy, are awkwardly third wheeling all the time. And sometimes I feel bad for the other guy, because he has been single through all of him the others relationships. For starters I'm fourteen, they're both 17, and we hang out almost every day. So, at this small party between us four, I got really drunk, and me and my thirdwheelpal, started making out (my first kiss). I also told him a lot of personal things, which he was really supportive and caring of. He then also fingered me, infront of the others, and I was too drunk to care. Next day, the others asked if I was okay with him using me like that, since they think he didn't mean ANYTHING by it. Since he has still been really supportive and such, I just think kind of miss what we had that night. I already have horrible confidence, and I feel like he just needed something to touch. Idk. I really just felt like he cared, and he still kinda does, it's just horribly awkward between us. (It happened 3-4 weeks ago)