I've been struggling so much lately. I've been sick for the past 4 months. I've just felt super nauseous to the point where I struggle to eat everyday. So I've seen doctors & a GI, and done many many tests, and my GI doctor thinks she found the problem- mild inflammation in my small intestine. So I started a new medication on Thursday that's supposed to take care of the inflammation. However, the medicine can take a while to start fully working. It's hard for me though because I'm already discouraged 3 days into taking it because I don't feel any different. I know I shouldn't be discouraged and that it could potentially take a week or two for the medicine to work but I can't help it. This sickness made me miss the last semester of my junior year of high school, during prom I sat in the bathroom for the majority of it because I felt sick and didn't want to embarrass myself, and aside from forcing myself to go to the prom I haven't been able to do much else with my life. If I was sick in any other way besides nausea I'd be out doing things. But I can't because I have a fear of throwing up and I don't want to be around other people or In public while I'm feeling like this. And now it's summer- and the things that have been getting me through this sickness that I've been looking forward to are coming up. I have a camping trip in two weeks that I'm now worried I won't be able to go on, and I was so looking forward to it. My mind is in a very dark place right now because it's a cycle of waking up every day and feeling sick at home while everybody else gets to eat and do things with their lives. I feel so hopeless & I can't see myself healing. I feel as though I'm never going to get better. I'm sure that's very unrealistic- but that's how it feels to me right now. And I'm starting to worry that I'm not going to be better in time for my senior year & that I'm going to miss out on getting to play my sport in the fall because of this. And to top it all off I've lost most of my friends because of this, since I basically have just dissapeared for four months. In high school four months is eternity. So I've turned here just to get all of this off of my chest, I'm so tired of being sick and depressed at home every day because of it. I'm just in a dark place right now and I don't know what to do about it.