Just have faith

You know what

We all as bad as each other

Just want to die

And so depressed and just want to give up on my life.

Might have a beautiful son and not so great hubby but I got everything i need.

All I see it others showing off oh look how cute my daughter is and others trying to battle out other baby's.

Everyday is like a strab in the back. I can't be asked to be a mum and put all my news all over social media, when everyone hates me and my family for being the way we are. Yes Ive been punched in my belly by my own brother and had a miscarriage, but I carried on having faith I could have a baby.... we tired 2 years to have a baby and then go lose it cause of my stupid brother and then try again.... but i was going through problem after problem with my little one. He had to have a brain scan and a load of blood test every week and ultrasound every week to check our little man still growing, not knowing whether he be alive or dead the next time we saw him. Was really hard. I've had a lot of faith over the years and I carry on having faith. He's was born 3 weeks early and once he was born he was taking away to get checked and monitored all the time, with wires all over him. Behind the screen I felt so sorry for my little man. I did everything I could, had a great birth and ate well while being pregnant and took vitamins.... it was like God was punishing me

Well this is him 10 months later

I just want to say for I'm proud, one proud mummy who got a super hero son

Faith never dies if you don't let it go