Today I found out I gained an angel; it's been a hard day for me and I feel so lucky to have my partner in this with me. They told me baby wasn't the size it needed to be and they couldn't hear it's heartbeat. My depression is kicking in hard and my thoughts are everywhere. I feel so broken and blame so many things and people including myself. I decided I wanted my baby to naturally pass with no help of medication or machines. Now my lil angel will grow somewhere else and I hope it keeps watch over me 💕