I know it's still early and I don't get my period until the the 1st but I have taken 4 pregnancy test that have all come out negative. I'm just losing hope. I keep thinking what happens if I never become a mommy and my life turns out horrible because the one thing I wanted most in life never happened. It keeps running in my head and I think maybe I'm just not meant to be a mom and maybe that's how things are suppose to be. Then I get depressed and mad and think no that can't be it. I have to be a mom. I know I shouldn't be stressing but I'm always so miserable and I'm actually started being mean to people. I can't help it. I have already had so much hurt in my life, I can't handle anymore. Rant over I guess