Ok so here goes. Hoping this is cathartic. I'm 26. My husband and I have been trying for about 6 months. Well I'm not really sure you can constitute it as trying honestly. I went on birth control when I was 16 for very heavy and painful periods. I was on birth control for ~9 years. During that time I suffered from an eating disorder and exercise addiction. I only recently have overcome exercise addiction within the last 2 years. In May of 2015 I lost my cycle WHILE STILL ON THE PILL. My doctor told me not to worry about it. So I didn't. I went off the pill in January 2016 because I am a nurse and I started realizing how abnormal it was to lose my cycle on the pill. I didn't get my period back before my wedding in May. Again, I was told this was normal because it can take a few months to regulate your cycle after coming off the pill. BUT THERE WAS NOTHING TO REGULATE BECAUSE THERE WAS NO CYCLE! I did Provera for one cycle and had a barely there period 17 days after coming off the meds. Then I moved and got a new doctor. She prescribed me birth control again even though I said I was ttc. I did it for two months. Had a period both months. Then came off in January 2017. I've had one period since. I've ovulated twice. I'm going to another new doctor next week. I don't exercise much anymore (which is really hard because I'm a freaking personal trainer!). I take a long walk 4-5 days a week. I'm hoping that by decreasing my energy expenditure my body will realize that it can spare the energy it needs to reproduce rather than using it towards working out and building muscle. I'm so fucking frustrated! To top it all off: I've gained 20lbs in the last year to try and conceive. And I was at a healthy weight at the beginning. My high school best friend also just had a baby in April (which I'm so SO happy about, but also a lot a bit jealous) that she conceived the same month she went off the pill. AND my sister had a freaking accidental baby while she was ON HEROIN and had already had several abortions. And both their babies are perfect angels and I love them to pieces but I'm SO stupid jealous! Ugh ok rant over 😞