help me please

Ok I know this doesn't have anything to do with like your body or anything it's just that I play soccer. And I have for almost 13 years now and I'm being recruited to play in college this upcoming year and I haven't even touched a ball in almost 2 months. HELP ME PLEASE IM SO SO SO STRESSED OUT. It's almost like I'm afraid to even go by one (a soccer ball). I'm afraid I'm going to suck, and that I'm going to lose all my talent/definition! I'm going crazy I'm so sad and stressed out by it. I can't take it anymore. I'm crazy crazy CRAZY stressed out by it. It haunts my every fucking thought I need your help everyone please. PLEASE help me.