Not sure whats going on with moods and a relationship

So I'm going to be real I'm an addict and have been clean 30 days after my last relapse. But I'm having guy issues. I had sex thirty days ago with a friend. We were really doped up. And he couldn't get his penis up at all. And I've dated other guys like this and I feel like it's me. This one said he got it up just enough and he pre cummed in me. And then went limp again. And called me later saying he got it up. I just don't know how my emotions right now are about him. Like or all the other guys. I feel horrible like I'm not good or pretty enough in bed. And then here latley I've been really nauseous and emotional and I've already had my period so I don't know any suggestions or comments I need advice