dv relationship

I have been with my partner well past the expiry date. I should of left when she hurt me and cheated and lied to me 4 years ago.. but I didn't cause she pulled me back in with her manipulative shit.
I guess after a long time of being treated like shit I kind of hate her touching me and sleeping with her. She always complains about " I never intitaite sex with her ever.. and tbh I'm really starting to get sick of hearing it every single day. It isn't easy leaving a abusive toxic relationship but I was wondering if anyone else has been stuck in one? Or has any advice for
Me? I really want to leave :( but it's so hard. I'm so close to her family too! I feel like she's al I know , and im scared to be alone