favorite holiday turned upside down

Zyirah • #1 is in heaven 👶🏽 . 🤰🏾🌈👶🏽 Greyson Love 05|15 ☺️ baby #3 on the way 🥳🤰🏾
I'm so sad this week 4th of July is my favorite holiday ever , all the cook outs and getting together with my family and a holiday you can look up at the sky and watch all the beautiful 💥 also celebrate our independent 🙌🏾 & my birthday is Thursday and I didn't get my BFP but also my due date was suppose to be July 9 2017 and I'm so sad I lost my baby December 23, 2016 ... I just need to up lifting and Ik God had his reasons and Ik he will bless me I just want my family to start growing 😩 I got Af July 2nd ends Thursday I hope July is my month. & I have crazy baby fever 🤕☹️ I'm overweight, last time I weighed myself I was 315 ! The biggest I ever been in my life ! This will be my 4th month TTC after my MC ! can you guys give me some advice what to do differently, I started working out at the end June, so I'm still doing it and I'm not gonna stop because Ik that's what my obgyn will say & I want to be healthy when I carry. I am eating healthy also I just need some help Ill take advice from skinny ,thick, or overweight women please give me faith ...