I thought we'd tried so hard this month, my heart is hurting so so much I'm so angry at the universe and god and whoever else will listen, how could it have let me know I was making a new life for a week and then taken it away just a month ago, it's so unfair..... I'm so angry at the people telling me I want it too much and to stop thinking about, including my mother and future husband... I hate the fact I've stopped drinking coffee for nothing, I hate the fact that I didn't honestly enjoy sex once this cycle and it was pointless, I hate the fact I'm scrutinizing every negative test in the hope, when I know full when it's positive I'll not have to squint! I hate seeing thousand of women all over the world announce their pregnancy while I sit here for the 14th month hurting and disappointed.... once af shows and I'm truly out I'll be deleting this app, cos every day it's a reminder of what a failure I am as a woman