not usually jealous...

I'm not usually a jealous person, but my sister in law just had her baby girl a few days ago. My twin daughters were supposed to be born 2 months ago (they were stillborn in December). I was so happy (albeit surprised) when I found out she was pregnant at the same time because all our nieces and nephews are a few years older and I thought our siblings were all done having kids - I was happy our kids would have cousins their age. Now I'm just bitter and jealous and having a hard time pretending to be happy looking at photos of her on Facebook. I keep looking at her and seeing my angel daughters instead and I don't know how to stop making that comparison and I don't know how I will keep it together when I meet her in person. Thanks for listening.