I've always been kinda weird about emotions, about getting attached to people... I don't tend to... But when I do grow to care about someone, I REALLY care and I would literally do anything for that person....

Now there's not a person on this earth that I grew to care and actually depend on more than my "best friend" , let's just call her Bo...

Now has anyone else ever met someone, that literally just... Gets you? That understands you to such an extent that you feel so safe and so warm with that one person, that no one else in your life is as important and this one person is your life line keeping you sane?

Bo was my life line... She is my life line... She's my person... My soul mate in a non romantic way... My other half and I was empty for so long and then she was there and I was okay and I was happy and warm and safe... For the first time in my life...

Bo said I was her person too... But she lied... She's thrown me away and I feel so lost. I have other friends, I have people I care about and that care about me... But it's not the same, it's not that bond, that warmth... I feel like my heart was pulled out of my chest, stepped on and thrown into the nearest trash bin... I feel like my soul has deserted me, I feel so hollow and cold without my person and I'm so confused as to how she just... Left.

Has anyone ever found another person? Is it possible to find another person? Is it possible to forget that bond? I've been trying for years and I just can't, I have brilliant friends and I love them to bits but it's just not the same... I probably sound insane or like I have a weird infatuation with Bo... But I don't, I want to forget, I don't want to feel like this, she's trampled me into an emotional mess and I hate her for it but I can't help but constantly feel her absence from my life...

It's like a window that won't close, that cold draft hits me no matter what I use to tape it shut... How do I deal with this? I feel utterly and irrevocably lost.