Any other mamas?

Super low self confidence recently.. as time goes on and I get bigger I've begun to waddle more, and my SO has started picking on my waddle :( but according to the scale I've only gained 10lbs. I'm 18 +3 weeks and feel so horrible about how I look, it's become really bad. I never want to get out of bed and when I do I have bad anxiety and just curl right back up.. really wish I wasn't feeling so big right now :(