I've been with my boyfriend for almost 9 months now. He just started the police academy today. And we're on Day 1 of our break I initiated. Lately, I've really been depressed and such. And maybe it's my hormones or whatever that wants to break up with him. He has a 3 year old that I've grown fond of and he to me.

He's perfect in all ways. But he says I'm more than just his girlfriend and that I'm his best friend. However, I don't feel like I am, but I'm just that, his girlfriend. He can't even til his exwife that he's in a relationship with me. Sometimes I feel like I'm just a secret.

I love him and want to have a family with him one day. And so does he. But when I have my "moods", he says that's one of the reasons he hasn't asked me yet.

And I'm just torn apart about staying or leaving. We've gotten so close to each other, and also to his son. We're each other's first relationship after our divorce. I'm just so confused about what my heart is telling me. I've told him while we're in this break that if we end up back together, we must be meant to be. If not, then we're not.

Just looking for some guidance here.