I met my Boyfriend/fiancé 8years ago in May, (he was my first) we had our ups and downs over the years.. moved in together in October. I wanted to try it for a couple of months thinking it wasn't going to work out and that would be a sign to split, but to my surprise I'm really enjoying this experience. I'm an only child went everywhere with my parents, always with them, lived with them all my life. I'm 28 now (I look 18, or so I'm always told) I work with infants and I feel like I've learned so much about parenthood. I always thought my ideal age would be 26 but I passed it and was until last year that I set this as my year to conceive. The Idea of conceiving (hopefully August) and telling Everyone the news gets me so excited, makes me so emotional to think about that day. I feel so ready for the next step and experiencing the growth of a little human inside me... on the other hand, I'm scared of not being able to conceive on my first try and waiting another year or so. I REALLY WANTED IT TO BE PLANED FOR A SPECIFIC BIRTH MONTH (MAY) my BF SAYS HE WANTS a child TOO, SOMETIMES WHEN WE do it HE SAYS ILL LET GO INSIDE now BUT ofcourse I say no! not yet... i feel like he says it from the mouth out but doesn't really have the guts to.. Im waiting for that moment when I say yes and he actually does it or if he doesn't I'll be so frustrated/disappointed cause I've waited so long for that moment...

it seems like everything in August would work perfectly since I'm going to ovulate mid August and we could try before and after, we're also going on a mini vacation just us two for the first time... I don't know if I'm doing good waiting for a month or

start trying from now.. any advice? I'm also petit lol and would love twin girls or Frat. Twins (he has frat twin siblings)

Health wise, I haven't been a very healthy person. I had epilepsy for years and it wasn't until 2010 that I was diagnosed, I underwent brain surgery 4 years ago and he has been with me through everything. I've also had a breast biopsy and a couple other things 🙄... I pray so much that I do conceive as planned and my pregnancy is healthy along with my blessing...