I tried to have FaceTime sex with my husband since I'm on a family vacation. It's weird but once I started becoming sexually active, I use to watch porn, especially lesbian porn to maybe satisfy myself instead of having someone do it for me. I use to mimic them and play with myself but I never felt pleasure doing it. That was around 17 years old. Now that I'm 20, I STILL don't find any pleasure in it. Only time I masturbate is with a vibrator (no dildo). Like idk what it is but it's corny to me lol. I don't wanna say weird but I do think it's weird that I don't enjoy it or even find pleasure, especially when I'm touching the right spots. Idk, is it just me? Is it like a subconscious thing? Am I thinking too deep? 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂

Anyway, I feel bad because I been wanting to do something like this for him and myself and when I got in the bath I just was like "nah this is boringgggg" and he looked excited. Maybe I just like pleasure from a man/woman and not myself. Idkkk this sucks 😩😩😩.