A month ago I started having bad stomach pains and ended up in the ER twice within one week and couldn't tell me what was wrong. Ended up going to an OBGYN and she said it was an miscarriage but I didn't know I was pregnant and hadn't thought about it since my periods were normal and everything. I went a month not saying anything to my husband and I ended up breaking down at work because I had started to fall apart. My marriage was rocky and we were fighting none stop and I lost a baby that we were trying our hardest to have and I ended up losing the child.

Part of me wondered what if and if things would have been different but part of me just doesn't want to try to get pregnant anymore because of the idea that my body doesn't want to have a baby. How do you move on with that feeling of losing someone you wanted to have so badly? It's like I'm not comfortable in my own body anymore and I don't want him touching me.