I have a friend who has a girlfriend. He and his gf get in fights sometimes for a specific reason that is besides the point. Late last night he was upset because they were in one of those fights. So me, being a good friend, let him come over.

It was like 1:30am, this probably wasn't good for me to say (text), but I said "if we cuddle it's only because I'm super sleepy."

I mean, Sometimes it's nice to have someone to cuddle with at night. And he's just a friend. I know that was bad to say though!

But anyways, he came over and we were cuddling. He was trying so hard to turn me on like rub my legs, kiss my neck, grab my boobs, etc. It was working a little. But I didn't want to do anything with him. I kept reminding him, "you know you have a girlfriend, right?" But that wouldn't stop him. And he would say, "yeah but we're in a fight." Eventually he got on top of me and tried kissing me. I wouldn't let him kiss me because 1. He has a girlfriend. 2. I'm not interested in him or attracted to him at all. But then he started rubbing against me, and me not thinking started doing it back. Because I mean, it felt a little good. Sometimes you can't think straight during those moments.

He kept trying to go further but I'd say no or stop. Eventually he took my pants off and was eating me out. I tried to enjoy the moment because sometimes that feels good! But then eventually I'd tell him that we should stop, but he wouldn't.

We got close to having sex because he had his pants off, and mine were too, and he was on top of me. but I told him I couldn't do that. Then I finally said he should go. After telling him that a few times trying to get him to stop, I finally got up and put my pants on and told him it was time for him to go.

I sat next to him waiting for him to get ready to go and then he told me, "you either give me a kiss or give me head then I'll go." (I didn't kiss him at all that whole time, I kept turning away when he tried) I didn't want to do either but I really wanted him to leave. I told him I'd give him only one kiss then he had to go. So we kissed and he kept trying to kiss more but each time I would pull away. I hate that we kissed and I am disgusted by it. I feel weird talking to him now too. He tried texting me today and I would reply to be nice but I don't want to talk to him at all lol.

I would say some of this I put upon myself because when I was out of town I didn't have anyone to text and he was texting me. We ended up talking about some naughty stuff so I knew he wanted to do things with me. I necessarily didn't want to do anything with him. I knew I would regret texting him about that stuff when I got home, and I definitely regretted it! I also said things that I shouldn't have and I didn't stop him at certain times.

Just had to get this off my mind. I just need to learn to be rude to a guy sometimes when things like this happen instead of doing things/letting them do things because I don't want them to get upset! If you want to give me advice on how to do that go right ahead!