I lost my baby at 10 weeks exactly. I went to the ER on May 15th for vaginal bleeding and really bad abdominal pain. They said there was no fetal movement or heartbeat or development after 6 weeks. I went home and at 11:30 on May 16th, i passed the baby in the safety of my home. I was in so much pain physically and emotionally that i didnt even want to look at it. I just flushed it. I regret it to this day.

Now, almost two months later, i keep hearing all my friends and family members announcing theyre pregnant and how happy they are and im over here dying a little more inside. I would have been 18+2 weeks today. All anyone ever tells me when they see the hurt on my face is that at least i wasnt farther along or i just need to "get over it". I dont know what to do. I just want to curl up in a ball and cry my eyes out daily.