Weird fantasy

Ugh, I don't know why but I like to fantasize about my boyfriend having sex with someone else. I know that sounds crazy, but I don't mean him having an affair or cheating on me but I want to watch him fuck someone else in front of me. I don't think I would ever actually go through with it because I would end up feeling insecure but it makes me so wet thinking about it. I want to find a sexy woman, I want to make out with her, suck on her titties, spread her open and lick her clit, and then I want to sit back and watch my boyfriends big cock go inside her. Wtf is wrong with me 😩