even though I broke off engagement and I know it was best. I am so sad like mourning. I never imagined I would break my engagement or be single again after almost 3 yrs... I never thought I would alone and having to start all over. now I find myself trying to not go fuck some random guy just for some comfort because I miss my now ex but strange enough I don't want to cuddle with me... I am trying to keep my focus on the Lord via scripture and prayer.