When I was younger I was a string bean; Very, very skinny. But as soon as I turned 10 I gained more and more weight and then it fluctuated:89-99-120-102-138-167-210-258-224. That was my highest and most disappointing time of my life. I was 14 and weighed that much. I was depressed, starved myself, took diet pills and cleanses, my mom was ashamed of me at one point. And I couldn't blame her. I felt like nothing and became suicidal. But I met someone and they loved me for me. I slowly felt better about myself and ate healthier, worked out and when I turned 15 I lost 28 pounds. It was very hard for me though. My family eats lots of fried fattening food when cooked or they buy fast food. I started telling them to put my food in the oven with light seasoning. I also had medical issues which recently got resolved. I have dysfunctional uterine bleeding/fibroids on my ovaries. If I wasn't in pain there I'd get migraines so you can say Im fucked on both ends. I started dropping dress sizes from a XXL to an XL, from a pant size 18-19 to a 16. I feel so proud of myself. I have my stretch marks but they show the journey I've been through. I have confidence, Im a plus size model, I almost failed my first year of high School from being depressed and sick and now an honor roll student, I have an amazing boyfriend who has been with me through thick and thin from my family to my own personal issues, I finally made peace with my father and told him how he hurt me, my health has improved a great deal, and my mother and I are closer than ever. This is the first year I wore a two piece bikini. Ive always been self conscious about my eczema and acne but I just don't carry about what people say. Im tired of hiding because i make others uncomfortable. Im a young woman. I bleed, I go through hormonal emotions, I have stretch marks, I have boobs, I have acne. Deal with it or don't 🤷🏽‍♀️. Im only dealing with my happiness and well being of myself and loved ones. Im not completely happy with my body, Im still losing weight and firming my body but soon I will be with a huge grin on my face proud to have the body I desire 💝