OKAY, so .. today I finally saw the love of my life for who he really is, I finally stopped trying to fool myself to think he can change his controlling manipulative paranoid ways, he can't even if he trys. the thing is I love him desperately, however I also know now that he is just the same as the others from my past. I sadly fell into abusive relationships from a young age n have been exposed to narcissistic behaviour from a child. I knew no different, what I'm starting to learn is that it's not acceptable, im seeking help for this too n I'm actually realising I am worth so much more then constant accusations of cheating when I'm doing no wrong, always giving my all to someone who will destroy you in a matter of seconds for his own sick benefit .. anyhow. I'm feeling strong I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, I was a fool to believe the mask he wore so well bt the more resentment I hold the more power he holds over me so I'm choosing to breathe n focus on my beautiful self 💖

Where I need your guys help is ... I'm pregnant, I need to stay away from him & I will have help n support however I was hoping to hear from others who are maybe in the same situation?? He knew I was pregnant & still couldn't stop himself, even if things were perfect for a few days it always fell back on old habits .. he's great with his other child n would never want to stop contact I just need some advice on how best to approach this, I have lots of time & want to be assertive n do it properly bcuz I can no longer afford to be under his thumb as I'm carrying & want a stress free pregnancy. (His 8yr old was born 6weeks early due to him causing stress to his babymum)

** this baby is a total blessing for me, I just want to stay strong & I live a fairly lonely life n it's just me, my little chihuahua Lilah & tiny baby right now, I'm hoping once bubba is here I can join some mummy networks n build my life back up... family are there but don't know the extent of his behaviour & it's difficult with family you know :/