As naive as it sounds, I never once thought I'd find myself "trying" to have a baby. I just thought after marriage my husband and I would decide to have a baby and shortly after we'd see that positive sign on a pregnancy test. It never once occurred to me it's something we would have to "try" for.

While in high school there were quite a few "surprise" teen pregnancies in my class; parents and sex Ed instructors put so much emphasis on how easy it was to get pregnant and promoted abstinence as the only way to prevent it. I wasn't ignorant; I knew birth control and condoms could be just as effective when used properly. But it still floored me how many girls were ending up pregnant. I figured it really must be easy.

My husband and i met at 19, married at 22. We both have large families that are constantly increasing (there is never a shortage of babies to hold at any family gathering). Again, it seemed to be thrown in my face how easy pregnancy was.

We both wanted to start our family right after getting married. Per my doctors instructions I stopped my birth control, started prenatal vitamins and 3 months later we stopped using any protection. We both figured within a couple months we would be expecting.

It is now almost a year later and it's still just us. After the first few months I started using glow to track my ovulation and even bought a couple kits to try. My doctor said I'm healthy, it just sometimes takes time. My husband says we're still young, there's plenty of time so there's no need to do anything additional yet; it will happen eventually. And I know he's right; but I just never once thought it would be this hard and emotionally upsetting. It seems there are so many surprise pregnancies around us and yet we are wanting it but it hasn't happened.

Today was another negative pregnancy test. Back to keeping our fingers crossed and hopeful for what will happen next month :)