I ended up doing pros and cons and it looks horrible. But idky I still care about him and miss him we were toxic but really good at times it's been a month of no contact I feel so much better feels like I got my freedom back 😎. I just hope he doesn't come back or contact me on meeting him coz His probly getting married to someone else for residency and to hv kids just because his mum wants grandkids.

After looking at the cons I feel like I dodged a bullet imagine marrying him he would make my life miserable being his gf I had 80% control over our relo but he knew I wud leave if I wasn't happy being married to him wud give him control.