Feeling pressured by my parents
So yesterday I was chit chatting with my mom and asked her what her favorite color was. I always ask, Idk why. She said orange and I said rainbow. We started with the conversation about rainbow not be a color. I jokingly is insisted that rainbow was my favorite color. Then after a five-minute conversation, we changed topics.
Here's some background information. I'm adopted and I have to mom's. I think they want me to be bi or lesbian. Also the pride festival was this weekend and I've been talking about wanting to go.
Anyways this morning my mom came into my room and asked me if I was telling her that I was gay because I said that rainbow is my favorite color. I honestly felt really violated because she was over analyzing what I said. I always thought that I was straight and if anything, bi. I've had so many crushes on boys and I've never had a real crush on a girl. I never show any attraction because I've never been that type of person and I'm an introvert.
When she left the room I started to cry because I felt like she thought I was lying because of how shocked I was that she thought I was gay. I always knew that I would be very accepted if I were gay, so that's not the problem. I think I cried because I never wanted them to be so involved in my sexuality. I feel like everything I do is being looked at and analyzed because they want me to be gay. I don't want then to think I'm something I'm not. Not that there is anything wrong with that, it's just not who I am.
Help! Should I talk to her again or just ignore it.
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