AF made her lovely appearance this morning a little after midnight. For the past two days I had took 6 pregnancy tests and spent countless hours praying and crying. This was the month I had stopped all forms of trying and we just did our thing when we felt like it. Everyone said that's all it took and yet it didn't take. So today as my SO and I were riding down the road I seen a double rainbow and my mood completely changed. You see, this is the 6th rainbow I've seen, 2nd set of double rainbows, in less than 2 weeks. I can't help believing it's a sign. This rainbow today stopped halfway up like it was in the Heavens, like my sweet little angel baby was sending it to me at the perfect moment. A sign to tell mommy soon your time will come, don't worry. I waste so much time on worrying and crying over not being pregnant that I sometimes forget to enjoy life. Sex has stopped being fun and instead has become a ritual to only conceive a child. So today I'm throwing it all away. The preseed, the ovulation tests and any other thing I've bought trying to rush to get pregnant. In 2 weeks I go to the beach for my birthday so I'm going to spend that time drinking and living my life with my husband instead of feeling sorry for us. From now on I'm putting it in Gods hands and I'm going to stop chasing rainbows and just let it find us.