When I was 14, I dated this guy who told me he was a virgin but I'm pretty sure he wasn't or he watched a lot of porn. We were at a park when he put me on all four and pulled down my pants and proceeded to do me right there while kids were playing off in the distance and took my virginity. I knew it was wrong but at the time I thought I loved him due to being young and stupid. It got worse from there. We would be watching a movie at his house and he would tell me to go in the kitchen to get something. They had a bar area where you could still see the tv from it. He would pull down my pants and fuck me right there with his family,friends, whoever while they sat on the couch. The one time I started to make a fuss. He later when his parents and sisters were up stairs, grabbed me by the nose and had me get on my knees while he shoved his dick down my throat. He held my nose until he came and when he left go, it came back up and out my nose and mouth. Then when Valentine's Day showed up, he told his parents he was making me dinner and we were going to watch a private movie alone like it was all romantic. They bought it and he did all that except when the movie came on he gave my a teddy bear and had my lay on my side and told me to hold on tight while he shoved his dick into my ass. I cried out in pain and he went for maybe 5 more mins until he pulled out and came. To this day I can't do cum in my mouth and have come very far just being able to give my husband now a blow job. I refuse to anal as well. Speaking of my husband now, he was the guy who ended up rescuing me from that relationship due to the ex was cheating on me with one of his friends. We dated ever since. But when we did to start having sex when I was 17, I asked him to be a little rough with me and I felt weird but I liked it. Then I asked him to be forceful and he did once but didn't like the way it made him feel. A few years later I actually asked him if we could do a dominate type Fantasy where he'd tie me down and have his way with me..I don't want to say rape fantasy because I tell him yes that's what I want so it's not rape but it brings up a lot of emotions and I feel bad for....