Endo rant.

Can I just say how fucking sick I am of having this disease. I am in so much pain all I want to do is cry and throw something but instead I have to smile, greet people nicely and continue with my day.

Every cramp, stabbing pain and tear reminds me of our struggle to have children and the fact that we have to seek medical intervention just to have a chance in having kids.

Then my mind goes to where it shouldn't, that why do drugged up assholes who take meth 12 times a day and have a baby that then has to go through withdrawals get to have children at the drop of a hat but the people eating right, working out 7 times a week, taking all the right pre natal vitamins, etc have to try <a href="https://glowing.com/glow-fertility-program">IVF</a>.

The pain makes my head feel foggy, like it's hard to concentrate on just one thought. Sleeping is out of the question during a flare up and the amount spent on pain meds and pads is ridiculous.

Endo is not something I would wish on anybody and I know far too many ladies my age who have it.

I hate that look that you get when you tell someone what endo feels like and they look at you like "it's just cramps". No, it's really not.

Now I'll go back to my desk, smile even though the tears are sitting in my eyes.

#Endometriosis #oneinten #notfair #help