What is wrong with me?

Grace✨ • A small town Midwest entrepreneur, with an unhealthy obsession for BBQ 🤙🏾 🚜

Does anyone else get frustrated and depressed when women around them have full term healthy pregnancies? It leaves me wondering "why my babies?". I'm supposed to be due with twins next month, and as the day approaches I can't help but become an emotional wreck. It's been awhile since I lost them, but it feels so fresh and I constantly find myself thinking about my babies.. Any tips on healing emotionally?