When my boyfriend was working at his old job he always sent me text on his smoke breaks and that's what got me through the day because he works 12 hour shifts

he quit that job and got a new one where he wasn't allowed to have his cell phone on him during his 10 hour shifts and it was just awful

yes I'm an adult but I have practically no friends and he's basically all I have so not hearing from him at all during the day ABSOLUTELY sucked

for the past few days he hasn't been feeling good and I know how he gets when he isn't feeling good and I try not to take offense when he snaps at me or become paranoid he's thinking of dumping me but it's so hard because I have almost no self esteem and he's such an amazing guy

he went back to his old job yesterday and he might've sent me a max of 6 text throughout the entire day which is so unlike him

today he hasn't texted me once, which I didnt mind till I went on my Facebook messenger because his litter sister messaged me and I saw that he was online

I honestly don't care if he's online on his smoke breaks during work but what I can't believe and what hurts is that he was online but didn't text me.....

on top of me already paranoid about our relationship

I've noticed over the past few days he's been different and cold towards me, so much so even his mom picked up on it and asked him about it

I'm always so afraid he's going to cheat on me because almost every guy I've ever been with has...

**UPDATE**

I'm starting to think maybe because it's the first day of my period that my hormones are making me overreact and overthink this but at the same time I can't help but feel paranoid because of the way he's been acting these past few days towards me