I just wanted to share something that has been on my mind...

My husband and I got married last year after 8 incredible years together. I fell pregnant just after the honeymoon (we were having carefree sex, not thinking about 'trying' but we knew we wanted kids right away) - however, I lost the baby at 7 weeks. I believe it was a chemical.

Once I miscarried, I gave myself 2 months off and we have recently started trying again. The 1st month was a fail - AF came around to say hello and we are now on month number 2.

Backstory - when I was 16, I fell pregnant with my ex BF. I was young and naive and only found out when it pretty much slapped me in the face, I was 11 weeks along (first sign: I ran out of history class and threw up). Anyway, long story short, I decided to have an abortion.... I feel like this is my payback for making the choice to get rid of the child. However, I was 16 and I just knew I wasn't ready to bring life into the world. Plus, my ex and I didn't have the best relationship.

And now I am being punished for making a horrible decision. Ever since I've been trying, everyone around me has fallen pregnant. It's a constant reminder to me that karma is real. So, I just wanted to put it out there that I'm so sorry, God. I know I did the wrong thing.