Read if you'd like, but venting my thoughts for myself basically...

The feeling you get in your stomach when you've been trying for a baby and finally take a test. The way your body feels while that test is processing.. Finally, you get a PREGNANT or that positive. The thoughts running thru your head! Another baby, YAY! I'm finally pregnant after only a month of trying. Are we ready for this? Another baby?! So exited you could scream at the top of your lungs. Finally telling your SO. He's over joyed too! I'm calculated at 6 weeks but have only know for a week now. Still over the moon to be having another baby! All of sudden I'm spotting, than a little more and before I know it it's a full on bloody massacre. A trip to the ER, days of crying, 7 days of bleeding and I'm left with nothing. Should say nothing, I have a beautiful angel watching over my family. I will always wonder who you would have been. Dreamt that you were a boy and we named you Briar. Your daddy would have been SO happy to have a boy. Someone to carry on the family name. Someone to show the ropes of how to be a farmer too. We love you so much and will never forget about you! 💙💗

Since the grieving I feel like everyone is pregnant. Everything I've seen lately is pregnancy related. Pregnant, babies everything related to something I don't have anymore. Nights are tough when you're left to lay there and constantly think. My heart still aches just thinking about it.

-Until we meet again sweet baby, mommy loves you!